Dear friend,
I was waiting my morning bus to a hospital like everyday till a sister(she's my senior) came to me and asked to accompany her (by riding a taxi) instead to the hospital.And yeap,it costed 18 le(RM9) while my usual bus fare is only 2le(RM1).She insisted it's her treat so I just paid my 2le.Just to slide my indebted feeling.
Back to my senior.She's married.Yep I know the ideas in people's head that overseas student(Egypt mainly) of getting marry early.It's kind of thing here.In fact,my roomie is a bride soon.I have no objection as that is a pursue of her life.Yet I'm still anxious about how she'll be soon.Well,hopefully she will get over it eventually.People say,we'll change after marriage-life.
The senior was running late.She supposed to be in the hospital at 8 and finish her sheet.My class start at 9.She said that her husband preferred her to leave the home after she settled her duties first.Well,in my opinion she better get up earlier with that tonnes of responsibility to shoulder.I was afraid to have all those weird and distracting conversation.So I just read my book all the way like I usually did whenever I felt unprepared.Lucky things went smooth and she didn't open her mouth much.I'll try to distance myself again.
The lecturer was already in hall.I arrived 30 minutes early and it was only 4 of us.She briefly lectured.I got a lot to complain about this department.Yet the HOD is so annoying.He always said,"do you understand,Malazia..why you not study,Malazia..good Malazia..good Malazia".It's like putting it on the nation rather than us.Simply put,it's rude.
Then I travelled back to the faculty for the lecture.I 'm so frustrated and depressed.I got 25/30 for my CoMed and 21.5/30 for my FoTox when my housemates were doing better.I felt like another stupid idiot.I am at home.I've been studying so hard.I'm fighting my inner self and thoughts.I'm doing all of it.Huh
I don't know what else to think.This better help me work harder for my finals hopefully.
Till then,
Flower.
