So,my last update was like 2 months ago.I regret that.It came to my realization I always blog{ed} whenever I want to spill out.Like tried human,but it never went well.
I had lot of dreams and words that I want to work on and don't know it just vanished in the air.Not business neither ignorance.Perhaps the latter though.
I had lot of dreams and words that I want to work on and don't know it just vanished in the air.Not business neither ignorance.Perhaps the latter though.
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| 10th of Ramadan Park,Hayyu Sabie,Cairo |
I am{still,the term is running long} a leader for my group.I almost forgot how it turned out when I was getting my coffee break during my long Community Medicine round,soon as I walked to the hall that the lecturer said,"we asked the one responsible for the group and turned out your friends agreed on you".And the former leader like nodded her head,as blessing I guess.
I quit student association thingy and a lot.I gave up on myself.I thought juggling responsibilities are not my best virtue.I have a clear vision,I want to succeed medical school.Only that.That's like the most important thing that really matters for me.And I'll go like blaming myself over and over for accepting the position.
The final exam is on the door{love how my Egyptian lecturer exaggerate on that} and yeah,we need that study weeks.Bad is that I have to bring and represent the students' voice to the Head of Department.Most of times,the voice turned out to be a reflection of mine.I was so depressed that I was accused of an attempt to attain privilege over another group to start earlier study week.Obviously,I failed.Both the attempt and effort.And as much I'm a victim in the situation I had to be all ears to listen to the complaints and stuffs I hate to hear.I wondered again why I jeopardized my emotions,hurt my all feelings by accepting the position.That just one simple everyday-stress I have.Dealing with hard-headed nations that refused changes.Huh.
The final exam is on the door{love how my Egyptian lecturer exaggerate on that} and yeah,we need that study weeks.Bad is that I have to bring and represent the students' voice to the Head of Department.Most of times,the voice turned out to be a reflection of mine.I was so depressed that I was accused of an attempt to attain privilege over another group to start earlier study week.Obviously,I failed.Both the attempt and effort.And as much I'm a victim in the situation I had to be all ears to listen to the complaints and stuffs I hate to hear.I wondered again why I jeopardized my emotions,hurt my all feelings by accepting the position.That just one simple everyday-stress I have.Dealing with hard-headed nations that refused changes.Huh.
We all get bad news everyday. Instead,we blame the person who deliver the news rather than the news itself.That is human.Begging for rooting at this point seems cruel just like that.
Pray for my less tense term and stronger heart .
Till then,
Flower
Till then,
Flower
